I was a scared kid. I'd wake my sister up to go to the bathroom with me at night. I couldn't watch anything that was even remotely scary or I'd be up all night and have to call my dad to the room. The last time that happened I was 21 and he said, "maybe you should stop watching anything scary." I haven't seen a scary movie in 20 years! At school, I was nervous to walk though the packed lobby without my sister or close friend. Once I started driving, I was always scared to walk to my car at night, like gripping fear, not just a little worried. In far too many situations to mention here, I would just be gripped by fear. And then, about 20 years ago, when I got my first Bible and started regularly attending a gospel believing church, I ran across this scripture.
2 Timothy 1:7 God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.
I got a dry erase marker and I wrote my first scripture on my bathroom mirror. I read it every morning, every night, and every time I used the bathroom. It was on that mirror until I moved out of my parents house, and then I wrote it on my own bathroom mirror. I read it so much, and sunk it so deep in my heart and mind, that in moments where fear had once gripped me, now I would repeat those words, God did NOT give me a spirit of fear, and I was changed. Forever. I still have moments where fear creeps in, where it attempts to seize me, but God's truth wins out.
Now, I have the distinct joy, when my kids wake with a bad dream, or are overcome by something that scares them, to share this scripture with them. I love hearing them repeat those words back to me and see them stand on the truth of those words.
Through the last several years, I have seen more and more times that this scripture applies. Not just when I'm afraid, but when my mind goes nuts with the what if's of life, of parenting, of trying something new, of doing anything outside my comfort zone.
God gave me Power to do what He has laid on my heart and to handle the tasks He has given me. He gave me Love, for me, and so that I could love others...to show me what that looks like. And He gave me a Sound Mind so that I could think rationally, which, lets be honest, can be harder than we let on at times, when the decision is tough, or when the stakes are high, or when the possibility of danger lurks.
I love this scripture. I love how God gives us truth when we need it. Today, if you are afraid, feeling powerless, or struggling to rationalize your situation, I hope 2 Timothy 1:7 helps you as much as it has me!